im tired today - which i shouldn't be but i am. it is strange to go from the world of working 40+ hours a week to NOT working at all - i dont know what to do with myself most of the time. i feel utterly and completely useless.
you know when someone yells at you and you stand there and take it from them? ya that was today - beth's mom decided to yell at me for something i supposedly did. people dont want to hear the truth. so i let myself be the scapegoat. i had no energy to argue back.
everyone is convinced that i am dying here. i am just fine - the cat litter needs changed but besides that i am fine. we are fine let me say. this is a temporary housing setting. i cant handle this much chaos all the time. i just needed complete starvation from the life that i knew. it was going no where and i was stuck in a viscious cycle. that being said - do realize that i am not the perfect anything. not the perfect person or daughter. jack of all trades but master of none. i will never have the perfect life with everything in place. i will never have thousands in my bank account. i love shoes too much. but that is who i am take it or leave it. the renegade friend and lover ...
he said, you've got to bring your own sun girl
bring your own sun
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